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ever since getting back from VN i’ve only been able to get out of bed at 7:30 Omfg… can yall believe I used to be expected to sit through the 8:15 office meeting and now I’m stirring my overnight oats at 8:20 and changing out of my pjs at 8:30 like that’s crazy. WHY DON’T THEY CALL ME OUT LIKE GUYS I WON’T STOP DOING THIS…

i THINK yesterday was my last time being in the classroom! okita sensei has been having me in there for her classes which is fine cos shes funny and i enjoy 11HR for the most part. i’m looking forward to having convo classes with the soon to be second years! there’s some smart cookies and some funny cookies and also itll be my last semester forever YAY! and aw…. T_T

okita sensei found out that atsumi sensei has been working as a sushi chef so we’re going to make plans to go together :D she’s so sweet and has been more keen on inviting me out to things in iwata than literally any other JTE so as sad as i am that i only got to work with her this semester i’m happy i got to work with her at all…! like imagine how much more involved i’d have been with the city if she was one of my JTEs from the start… but its ok :3 since she found out i went to vietnam today she brought her little printed photo albums from when she visited in ‘98 with her sister and it was so sweet of her to share them with me HAHA. different vibes from the photos toyoda-sensei showed me of her living it up on the rooftop bar with her girls… oh and i also invited toyoda-sensei for sushi so atsumi sensei must now entertain these lovely ladies as well!

i got home and started chipping more away at the mock thumbnail i was working on… which was a nice change of routine instead of torturing myself with anxiety about my BJJ class! first of all i thought i thought it was so funny that yukari sensei reached out on the gym IG and asked if I’ve been ok since i’ve been gone… like don’t worry girl i was just getting sunkissed! but idk it’s just very nice of her to wonder! like aw…. so then i proceed to, head emptily, get to class and it turns out… i actually kind of had fun! paola was there for the first time in awhile and there’s some new kiddos so i felt less like total deadweight to the class…. and we just drilled some movements that we’ve done before so language barrier didn’t curse me too bad until we were practicing a submission that’s new to me– little sarah was trying to explain it but i couldn’t figure out where to put the pressure until we beckoned yukari sensei over and she moved me around and that is when i learned that we were doing the AMERICANA!!!!!!!! new submission unlocked. omg.. i’d always see the word thrown around but now i got to learn it in context at least… yay! anyways after some more drilling we started sparring and i was able to not get tapped by little sarah, and i got mel in an arm bar again and tapped her out to yukari sensei’s witness so she gave me a little omedetou… which felt GOOD OK. LIKE MAYBE I AM LEARNING THINGS.. but that was my only tap cos paola was suffocating me in ways i could not comprehend and my brand new equipped AMERICANA was not working on aika-chan– who btw kills me cos why when we’re about to start rolling she says “ok girl we are not rolling for real” and then we fake spar as she tells me about this romance novel that she’s reading about Levi with a huge peepee. i meant to ask if he had a gf in the novel but she heard it as me asking if she had a gf to which she said not anymore. so i said aw sorry and she said it’s fine she was annoying. like girl LMFAOOOOOO… then she said she came to class because she thinks the newer girls are cute and i’m like? girl the KIDS? and she says i’m 14 they’re 11 it’s close enough and i was like girl you are so fkn yabai… i will assume she means it in jest. as i was leaving yukari sensei asked if i’ll be coming on monday and i said i sowwy me in tokyo… but actually i won’t be able to come for at least a week or two since i’m getting tattooed but i did not say that. but still. i had fun! i will be back!

so i got home after that and finished lining and even did some colouring for the mock thumbnail! ate a shredded cabbage cheese and chicken with caesar dressing salad and stayed up till like 12am. sleep is the at the core of all my troubles… i will fix it hopefully before the end of fat feburary….